Love Can Build A Bridge

Wonderful little shiner prizes.
I'm learning not to be cynical of my happiness. When I get the time to think too much I start realizing my circumstances and trust those over my happiness. I wonder why I'm not okay just letting myself stay happy--why I have to correct my happiness when it's strangely not jiving with my surroundings. Like as if my joy is some weird delusion or weakness.
I'm the sort of person that regularly assesses my actual circumstances with a realistic eye and adapts my feelings or level of joy to my conclusions. I do this INTENTIONALLY. In other words, I'm usually happy until I realize that I "shouldn't be". WHAT A RETARD I AM.
Now I'm realizing that, conversely, and MUCH MUCH BETTER, I can make myself believe that I'm happy when my actual conditions are real terrible. Well, I can't do it myself, but I can do it with Someone's help. I'm really starting to believe that the joy of the Lord is something that doesn't have to be touched by physical circumstances. Isn't that so weird? Such a miracle.
It's been a roller coaster ride of sadness and happiness these past two days. Struggling to hang onto the promise of unspeakable joy, and then seeing it work its magic in my life. It really works. It's amazing.

And now, have yourself a listen, and be filled.
(Just in case--the above link is a link to a system song that was originally on one of those Family-sanctioned green variety tapes a long long time ago. It's a Christian song with a beautiful meaning, and I rate it two thumbs up!!!)