Here! Here's something I can share!

The last few weeks I've been struggling against a big explosion of sinusitis (I don't know if it was actually big, but it was inside my eardrum, so it sounded pretty big). The oddest thing about it this time (and maybe only people like Mark will understand this) is that my ear has popped and drained 3 times in rapid succession without ever regaining its hearing or completely draining. Like, bam bam bam.
When this happens, it means beanie hats and bandages on my ears. Yesterday I shoved all my hair into this hideous pink hat with a fluffy ball atop it, and that got three people to tell me I looked like a cancer patient.
But basically, it's been a series of interesting realizations for me.
Like the other day, when I promised Senor that I would spend 2 hours of undisturbed time with Him, my ear started hurting--and got worse, and more distracting (obviously). Usually when I get a bad earache I go somewhere where people can pray for me, where I can get a Tylenol or two, (where people sympathize when I'm writhing in pain. Heh heh).
But this time, I felt Senor's tug on me. Like a disappointed, pleading sort of tug. Like, "you promised!" You know?
So I told Him that my earache was a little distracting, and I wouldn't be able to concentrate unless I went and got myself some healing, or unless He healed me for me (and for Him, obviously, since He was the one who wanted me to stay).
And then it sort of solidified the idea of flesh versus spirit in my head. Like, why run around and pretend like I CAN make the pain go away, when the Lord's the only one that can, and the Lord's the one that really wants to? Heavy stuff. It's like...you think you understand it when you read it, but then it goes and illustrates itself to you and you understand it in a completely different way. Like, other-dimensional kind of understanding.
All that to say, my ear started slowly started numbing down to a soft gnawing and I was able to complete my marathon with el Senor.

This morning we read AOW pt.7, Parallel Wars. It was real interesting, and it made me think about how I get sick real easily all the time, and how I've been using sinusitis and my weak immunity system as an excuse. Recently, because of how bad it's been, Dad and Mom have been seriously on my back day and night getting me to drink tons of water. Like, "Good morning! Did you drink a liter of water yet?" Of course, even without their nagging, I realize that I need the water in order to flush out my system, not only when I'm sick, but all the time. You remember, El, how much I hate drinking water.
They've also been urging me to drink lots of orange juice with cayenne pepper in it. My problem with this is that I don't like spicy things and can't take so much of it, so it's slow progress. They also make me apple cider vinegar water (at least Mom puts honey in it. Heh, you know Dad's one of those "take a shot and get it over with" kind of guys).
And while we were reading, I kept thinking about the water. I kept thinking about how I'm always doing uro uro at night and never go to sleep on time. How I always wake up at the last minute before devotions because I'm so tired, and miss those wonderful morning minutes. How I exercise real faithfully the month that I feel like it, and slack off when I'm concentrating on other things.

So you can pray for me, my sickness and my fighting to make myself stronger. Or you can tell me about YOUR Parallel war.

PS: The reason this post has no picture, is because it was a toss-up between posting one of those boring diagrams of the ear or a picture of a body going YOISHO. Neither of which sounded too inspiring.